I’ve Licked My Wounds But I Can’t Ever See Them Getting Better

*Title from "Goodnight Goodnight" by Maroon5. I'm so in love with this song.
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Tabs is very, very sick! Tsk! She can barely breathe this morning. I feel bad for her.

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Audrey Kitching's hair is awesome. I want her hair. Seriously.

And I've Got A Plan, We Walk Out The Door

*Title from "Five Minutes to Midnight" by Boys Like Girls.
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I told Tabs that I'm gonna give a whole pizza to the person who will correctly guess who Prince Charming is. She already figured out who he is, she just needs to know his name and she'll get the pizza. So yeah, there's a pizza up for grabs. Ha ha!

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I went to lunch with Kim, Elgin, Meme and Steph. We had a little Twilight talk.

KIM: I now love Robert Pattinson because of Twilight!
ME: I now love Twilight because of Robert Pattinson!

I don't know why but it really bothers me that everybody likes Robert now just because he's playing Edward.

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Tropic Thunder this Saturday? Maybe.

Weathervanes My One And Lonely

My Prince Charming

Three guesses who.

*Title from "Northern Downpour" by Panic at the Disco.

I Always Put Myself In Destructive Situations

I'm tired of making titles so from now on I'm just gonna borrow a line or two from the songs I'm currently listening to. Unless I go into title making frenzy again. Which is sick because I tend to come up with a month's worth of titles yet I can't think of anything to put in the entry itself.

Anyway, the previous post's title was already quoted from a song. It's from "About A Girl" by The Academy Is. And today's title is from "We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands" by (Surprise! Surprise!) The Academy Is. Yeah, obviously I'm still stoked on The Academy Is. They're so freaking awesome.

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Survivor Philippines is pretty odd awesome! Yeah, I'm addicted to it and it's the only local show I religiously watch. I'm a Naak Tribe supporter because there's too many annoyingly plastic people in the other tribe. And it doesn't help that I hate Marlon with a passion. Every time I see his face, I have this urge to strangle him. So yeah, I hate the Jarakay Tribe except for Charisse.

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I may have been misunderstood. The answer is NO. I don't have anything for him anymore. Yeah, I'm sure. There's really nothing there. Sorry.

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This one's for Jiselle. *wink*

Tongue-Tied And Overloaded

I had a sudden urge to clean my room today. While browsing through my drawers, I found my old journals. A photo fell out of one of them (cliché much?) and I was laughing hard when I saw it. It was a photo of me back when I was in first grade. There was an event and us students were lined up by year level. I had this stupid grin on my face and I was wearing some kind of costume. That wasn't what made me laugh though. What made me laugh was the person standing next to me. He was a couple of inches shorter than me and he was looking at me dubiously. Back then, he was just some random kid who goes to the same school as me. We’re not friends. We only knew each other’s names (in our school, if you’re constantly part of your level’s top 10, everybody knows who you are).

Sometimes I wish it stayed that way. Then, he would just be a part of some silly childhood picture.

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I’ll probably hate myself for bringing this up.

So I’ve been reading those old journals this afternoon. When I reached the 2004 to 2006 journal, I stopped. I didn’t want to read it. See, I already did a great deal just to forget everything that happened in that period. I’ve done a good job forgetting and I don’t want the memories to come back. But I’m too curious for my own good, so yeah, I freaking read it.

As I expected, every single page was filled with RG stories. I cringed at most of them, by the way.

Reading them made me realize how many things I was able to block out. And I’m so proud of myself at how good I am at blocking stuff out. Memory gap does have its advantages!

Before today, I was so scared of having these memories back. I’ve always thought that when I bring them back, the confusion, feelings and unresolved issues would come back too.

So is it back? I’ll give it a day to sink in.

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Yeah, I know, I just opened two hellholes in one entry.